
I Remember Jennie
By Gerry Holtzman
Whenever I think of her, my mind fills first with strong tones of black and gray,
punctuated by brief traces of white. Out
of those somber shadows, a tiny figure slowly emerges and I see Jennie Cogan once more.
She wears a
severe black dress with some sort of simple white neckpiece.
Her coarse grey hair is pulled back into a proper bun. There is no jewelry or any sort of
decoration on her dress or on her person. Not
a ring or pin or even a watch.
Her expression
is equally serious. Accentuated by
wrinkles, framed by steel-rimmed spectacles and unrelieved by makeup, it is a face of a
woman who brooks no nonsensethe face of a woman who has a job to do and who is
intent on doing it.
Holding an open
book, she stands in front of a room-length, dusty blackboard which is covered with rows of
precisely regimented phrases. Not
quite five feet tall and shorter than all of her students, this iron-willed and determined
woman is reading aloud. She is
reading poetry to her 14 seventh graders.
My minds
eye widens and I see myself in the row by the window.
Although many of my classmates appear indifferent, I sit enthralled. The poem she is reading is Kiplings
Danny Deever. In fact,
whenever I think of Miss Cogan, shes always reading Danny Deever.
I can no longer hear her voice but I can clearly hear the wordsI memorized
them, not because we had to but because I fell in love with the sounds of those words, the
pictures they evoked and the way the rhymes bounced off each other
For theyre hangin Danny Deever,
you
can ear the Dead March play.
The regiments in ollow squaretheyre
Hangin him to-day.
As a 12 year old, growing up in the tiny upstate village of Amenia (pop. 987, alt .
573), I wasnt quite sure where India was or why Danny had shot a comrade
sleepin but I was fascinated by the rhythm and the incongruity of:
What makes the rear rank breathe so
ard!
Said Files-on-Parade
Its bitter cold, its bitter cold the Color-
Sargeant said.
What makes that front-rank man fall down?
Says Files-on-Parade.
A touch of sun, a touch of sun, the Color-
Sergeant said.
She pronounced said so that it rhymed with parade. It became the color-Sergeant sayed. I dont think Kipling intended those two
words to rhyme so precisely but, to this day,
whenever I read or recite that poem, I still find myself pronouncing said the
way Miss Cogan did.
And she was, of course, Miss Cogan.
Although her spinsterhood was an established fact, none of us in seventh grade knew
where she actually lived. George Clinton
claimed that she had a room across the street from the school in Mrs. Foleys attic. But George was only in sixth grade and
had been known to exaggerate in other situations, so most of us dismissed this as
unreliable gossip. We preferred the more
tantalizing theory that she lived somewhere in the school building, the most likely
location being in the basement next to the furnace room.
We made up some grand stories about her life down in that dingy
basement and, being typical seventh graders, added some sex interest by including tales of
wild assignations in the coal bin with Red OConnor, the ancient school janitor.
In all honesty, during the eleven years I lived in Amenia, I cant recall ever
seeing Jennie Cogan anywhere but in her seventh grade classroom. Where she lived was, in fact,
unimportant; her real home was in that classroom.
Like all elementary teachers in Amenia, she taught two grades which were both
contained in a single classroom. The
seventh grade sat on the window side of the room, the eighth grade sat on the door side. Promotion from grade seven to grade
eight involved simply moving over two or three rows.
Now heres the odd part of my memory of those days. Even though I spent both my seventh and
eighth grade years with Miss Cogan, I have
only two clear-cut recollections of her, one good and one bad. The good one was the morning she read
Danny Deever, the bad one was the
afternoon she whacked me in the hand with a ruler.
I dont recall why she did it but
I do remember that she took me completely by surprise and that it hurt like hell. When I looked up through tears of pain and
humiliation, I saw this tiny woman in her drab black dress, standing over me, her ruler at
the ready, glaring mercilessly and daring me to react.
Although I outweighed her by a good forty pounds, I just sat and hung
my head, ashamed at being singled out for punishment and frightened by the ferocity of her
attack.
She probably hit me because I wasnt paying attention. I did that a lot, particularly when I
got into eighth grade. I had learned
pretty much all the eighth grade work when I was on the seventh grade side of the room.
And thats about all I remember of my two years with Jennie Coganthe
poem and the ruler.
About twenty
years ago, there was some sort of tribute to her in Amenia but I didnt hear of it
until it was over. She must have been
close to ninety by then.
I wish I had found out in time. I
would have liked to have attended and to have thanked her for reading Danny
Deever aloud. And, if I
could have mustered up the courage, I might have even told her that I held no hard
feelings about that business with the ruler.
Gerry Holzman has written
for Yankee Magazine (Miss Cogan would be proud) and has
granted us special permission to publish his memories of Jennie.
Today
he runs the Empire State Carousel Museum in Islip, NY. We
hope to see him at one of our 300th birthday events and to read more of his
essays about Amenia.
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